2019 Recap!

The best is yet to come..

What a year it has been! I wanted to do a little quick recap post of 2019 so that in 10 or 20 years I can read back and see exactly how amazing this year was for me.(since I took a long hiatus from blogging, so I think this recap would help!) 2019 was the greatest for me. (I think so) even though I felt lost at the end of 2019. It’s been another busy year, but it’s also been one of my best so far!  I enjoyed every single moment in 2019..And yet, in many ways, it was so much more than I even dared to hope.
I like to make goals for myself,  it’s like time for a quick accountability report through out the year.

So, how did I do on the goals I made for this year? Overall, actually not too bad. 2019 was all about changes.

It was January 2019 when I decided to invest some of my money for Emanora Clinic by doing partnership with my best friend, Dr Farah Dayana. Back then, I was a scary cat! I got so comfortable with my life that time but I admit I was so busy until I don’t have time for my daughter. For those of you who doesn’t know, I used to work as a medical doctor in government clinic from 8am – 5pm and continue doing locum at private clinic everyday till 12 midnight. Locum clinic was usually super busy and I don’t get enough rest. My salary back then wasn’t enough for me to spoil myself and even my daughter but it was enough to carry on. I no longer feel that I’m growing and everyday tasks become tiring and repetitive. So I decided that at the start of the year, I must do something for my career. I need to upgrade my life. It’s either continue studying or do something! That’s when I said YES to my partner.

Alhamdulillah after a year, I can now do things, eat things whenever,wherever I want. What I’m so blessed is I have time for my daughter! At least I still can bring my daughter to work at my own clinic at night.

I received my own new house key in March 2019. I started looking for a home of my own since 2016. Now, I’m still in the process of upgrading my house, installed furniture and small renovations should start in next year.

I bought new car (from Syed Sobrie to Syed MuTaleb) in the middle of the year. I changed my Huawei 9 to Iphone 10 in August 2019. It looks like I have a lot of money but actually I’m super broke! -_-

Oh yea, 2019 was a big year of travel. From Europe to Asia, I experienced so many different part of the world.  I traveled to a few country in 2019. From Spain, Portugal and Morocco in April 2019, to Surabaya, Indonesia in June 2019, Japan in October 2019 and while reading this entry, I am currently in Saudi Arabia, performing my Umrah in Mecca. Alhamdulillah.

2019 would not be complete without a visit on the beach! Trip to Rawa Island from 1-4th August remains one of my best memories from the year.

Looking at the photos makes me want to pack my bags and go back.
Just a fact: I never liked the ocean. I love the sight of the waves dancing at the sea shore, the blue and white combination of the sand and the water.
But the truth is, I’m actually afraid of it. You know, unaware what’s going on underneath that deep blue sea. Can’t imagine if there is the blue whale with 100 feel long thats the size of THREE school busses under the sea. Nature is beautiful but damn it’s scary!

I learned that it’s okay not to be okay. I could cry my heart’s out and I don’t have to pretend I was happy when I was falling apart. And it’s still okay. I kept on questioning myself every time and I know it’s not healthy but I’m so glad I’m getting by…

What a year it was! I’m happy I managed to keep myself together despite the lows life had given me. Thankful that I met so many amazing and incredible people ! I made new friends. Tons of them and I couldn’t ask for more!
Next year, I will focus on the good things. Do more savings. Think about my future (lol) Create more dreams and find ways to achieve it !

And now looking back today, I realized how a year can change a person. It changed me. Hopefully to a wiser and more grown version. Thank you to everyone who made my 2019 memorable.

Totin Jamain
I give myself the luxury of saying what I want.