Officially divorce my life from the world and social media. Focusing on my relationship with Allah, seeking forgiveness and making dua..
I had an intention of performing umrah with Aurora wince 2016. But a lot of trouble occurred at that time. Visa tak lepas and whatsoever. That upset me quite a bit.
In October this year, I feel so depressed and sad almost all the time. I need someone to talk but I don’t know who. I need someone to share but I don’t know who. I have no desire to make contact with people, or even my patients I feel very lonely and as if nothing could make me happy. I loss my weight from 45kg to 39kg. I believe nobody will understand and put a blame on me…
I did ask aurora
M: “can you follow me to mecca, meet Allah and performing umrah together?”
A: “Mommy I don’t want. I’m not ready for it. I don’t know how to pray.. nanti rora boring ..”
Hmm but 2 weeks after, she gave me a big hug after my solah,
A: “mommy let’s go to mecca and ask Allah.. I don’t wanna see you crying..”
Masha Allah, Allah opened our heart there and then. We are ready for Umrah. May my Umrah, prayers & intentions be accepted.
See you next year, InsyaAllah!