Typically something happens , I share it and away we go. Except some things are so heavy, they are things I struggle even to share with the people closest to me. But sometimes a share is something someone else needs. To know they are not alone.
So here it goes…
I have been struggling. I am a happy person about 80% of the time. 90% on a good week. I fight hard for it. I wasn’t always. A happy person.
However, over the last 2 months, the stress of work, my personal life, a health scare hitting me. I have been holding it together with duct tape and bubble gum. I have done a good job of putting on a brave face but when I’m alone I’m at my worst. I’m quick to cry anyway. Stopping is hard. Starting is way too easy.
While I don’t have the dictionary definition of depression. I do have these moments. If I’m being honest, I’m embarrassed that I do. Why in my life is so bad? I should be able to handle it. At least that is the tape that plays in my head.
I don’t look depressed.
The reality is I’m fighting.
and I know, some of us just hide our battles.
Please know I’m not making light of this but I am definitely trying to lighten the mood.
For me, for you.
I shared this, so you know we all have our moments.
Those moments don’t define you. Those moments don’t make you any less fantastic.
Those moments make you – you..